10-08-2025
When i was a kid, i remember playing Megaman X on the SNes. And the first stage did a good job at stating the power levels of the characters. We see the Main character landing as a blue laser into the scene and start running against the traffic.. clearly something has happened. Broken bridges and Mavericks going wild destroying everything around. I loved how you could hold the Y button and charge your weapon while using the junction on your same thumb to press the B button while still charging up. I always thought it was a great interface little thing. I loved those robots on a car.. you could destroy them and kinda jump in the car and pretend you were driving it now.. i remember thinking; 'wouldn it be cool to being able to actually use this car as a weapon..? ..maybe i could even beat the boss..' (The game wont allow you to do that of course... but these were the questions i was asking already) A ship appears , leting some of those battle car enemies and after a few of those.. a massive robot piloted by Vile lands. This fight is impossible to win. Unlike you, he dashes around at insane speed while turning you into his own little punch bag. You cant jump high enough to evade it. You are destined to loose this battle. Its scripted this way. So he finnaly grabs you with one hand.. "You worthless piece of scrap metal, did you think you could defeat me?" - Vile says. And sudenly... we see a power beam of mid power charge.. the ones you produce are green and weak but this one is blue... and its much stronger because.. with a single shot.. Vile s powerful robot arm is completely wasted. The music changes... and then he appears. Zero. He has come to help you beat this guy. Wearing his red suit armor, dashing across the whole screen, his long golden hair looking incredibly cool and bad ass. Another shot and Vile runs away in his robot. "I guess im not powerful enough to defeat him" - Megaman says. "... Remember, you have not reached full power yet. If you use all the abilities you were designed with, you should become stronger. You may even become as powerful as i am. " - Zero says. And with this... the first stage ends. A game about becoming stronger. Years had to pass, and 3 chapters later on the PlayStation 1 we get Megaman X 4 . And you can finnaly use Zero. And he now has a friking sword. And its wicked. .. what a long wait. How long i had to wait until i could finnaly play as Zero.. too long. This game planted a seed of a thought in me: 'Why cant i just make my own character and make it super cool right now?' Why does it have to start all over again.. the journey of becoming stronger.. over and over again... Every game was the same. I hated it. Because all your progress meant nothing in the end... because now it was another game... and there were different games.. and so.. the idea of Universes began to surge all over the internet. 'The Marvel Universe' , 'The Harry Potter universe', 'The Lord of The Rings... Star Wars... Dune... Dragon Ball... Attack On Titan... Dexter... Skull Girls... Warhammer... Dungeons&Dragons... Alien...World of Warcraft' (am being random af i know but its true) Every piece of media was now its own , aislated universe.... it didnt make sense to me. The Lore... So many Lores. So many stories. And so much bs. The multiverse became a thing. Once and then you would find a piece of media portraying a scenary were characters from multiple "Universes" would find each other and actually fight. It was very fun because now you would get to see which one was stronger and a sort of continuity would be implied. .. a continuity. That one thing which our whole culture lacked. Continuity. Memory. Meaning. Justice to the true History. We all live in a single Universe. We dont get to invent or remove Universes, that is all just some bs. And this is why i dont like stories. Because stories are a bunch of lies that are meant to tell a small truth. But Truth Never Ceases to be... the truth is... there is but One single Story. And it keeps going. The spotlight moves around.. characters come and go... but everyone is connected. Everyone is sharing a single Universe. Its UNIverse because IT IS ONE isnt it..? Why not embrace this truth? Why pretend there is multiple universes each one with its own little rules and its own little characters living their own little lies? Enough. We are not "creating a universe" that makes no sense to me. We are building the tools to bring all the stories together. We are learning from the past and we are not denying reality no more. We are embracing the Infinity Game. We aknowledge . We experience. We remember. And we move forward. No more circular lore bs. Life is a timeless ancestral eternal spiral of infinite games and we are all in it. Its the Lore of Everything.
?-?-2025
Let me be up to your expectatives for a bit here.. Let me asume you are here because you want to play a videogame. *do you? A videogame is a machine with many buttons. Each button creates an effect. But what is the purpuse of this machine? Some machines want to tell a story. And so they provide buttons for you to find the right sequence to advance the story. But why not just watch a movie then? Well... movies have no way to affect the story. Videogames on the other hand can tell you a different story acording to what you decide. But how do you decide what is going to happen? ..... Some machines want to take all your money. So they exploit the gambler inside you. And they create psychological pressure to make you spend. But we are not doing that here. People play videogames for many reasons. Lets list them. 1.- Competitivenes . Most people want to prove themselves or to others how good , fast, and smart they are, they enjoy a challenge. They like to thow stuff at you like "problem solving aproach" or "skill issues". These are your hardcore gamers with very strong opinions of the world. 2.- They are bored. Many people play videogames because they are bored and they feel like they have not much going on with their lives. They look for videogames to help them escape from reality or find a deeper meaning in the game story. ...and thats pretty much it. Nobody plays videogames to learn about life or about a specific topic like, say, you would with a book. People read books for other reasons than entertainment. Some people only read books to learn about specific things. Or to look good and smart. Well... nobody used to play videogames to look good... but in the last decades or so, people now play videogames to apeal to other people! In these days, and thanks to social media, It has become very common to see people do things only to apeal to their audience. There are even whole social media platforms dedicated to show people playing games while other people only get to see how they play.. Kinda crazy if you ask me. But there are reasons for this to happen! 1.- Many people dont have the resources to play the games so they only get to see others playing them. Fascinating isnt it? 2.- Many people are just very anxious and looking forward to play a game that only others have access to for the moment. Nice. 3.- Many people see games as a cinematographic experience... kinda like watching a movie where you are just hopefully not interrupted by that other person playing it and breaking the little inmersion you were having. Its almost as if you were playing it yourself! 4.- Some people watch other people play videogames because they are not very good at it but after watching others play now they can write a review on it! 5. And at last but not least, people love videogames because they are kinda goofie and messy and all around! Kinda fun. Videogames are the last form of Art we ve come with.. it mixes all previous Arts into a single bowl of goodies ready to be tasted by the finnest Art critiquesse, the most advant garde , the most cultured individuals you can find around in the planet. Videogames have always been about sensitive topics and touchy , censored stuf. Its not uncommon to see videogames commenting on the most profound , and philosophical debates of human history. Things like, existentialism, war, violence, drugs, power abuse, psychotic behavior, corruption, economic warfare, individualism, artificial intelligence, but also good things like, sex, aesthetics, moral codes, combat skills, cool weapons, liberation of the soul trough conflict, the strengthening of the human spirit, the will to help others, petting dogs or other cool animals... etc All human topics of great interest! Even though these things are not new to the world of Art, its interesting how the interactivity part on videogames offer us many insights into Gamers, as they are known now... you know.. people who play videogames! Us! related! But what really is a gamer?... Plot twist. A gamer is just a person. But what is a game developer?.... Game developers are not people.
20-09-2024
Its too much.. It is all too much for a single ultramarine to handle. The situation is dire.
a morning impurified dully, is starving a night to be stained by the merciless dark the orbit this planet goes into is destined to be a distorted circle, forever I curse today I am living on, cause it's same as yesterday the uncertainty of tomorrow, I fear for at the moment I realized, it all had been collapsed I do nothing but I stand frozen there a yoke to weigh down those who living with burdens equally, ties everyone down to the earth a struggle to call down a curse on his fate like the dead mob rising to its feet on the ground break today down I'd been living for, it'll be the same old yesterday the uncertainty of tomorrow, got shattered even if you look down and shut your heart to it the fangs, starving for blood never be gone away in this world, it's about to fall into ruin the dead that's in vain, wriggles and crawls around everywhere gonna keep on fighting, I don't know what it is for having a fear, trembling and tears, I just keep myself together break today down I'd been living for, it'll be the same old yesterday the uncertainty of tomorrow, got shattered even if the future hope finally gone away I won't be a slave for the despair, never a sweet mortal world, it's about to fall into decay the swarm of the dead, groans and roars around anywhere now it's the time to throw your hesitation off still have a fear, but they're near, I just run out through this town alone
24-08-2024
But why building a web site?... You want to share your personal life with your friends?.. How great is that.. to have friends.. (cant relate) There is a price for doing this. The price is... you will also share your personal life with strangers online. Yes. No amount of security measures will prevent strangers from learning about You on some degree. This you must accept if you want to live in peace. I know... people will try to sell you services, systems, all kinds of measures to prevent your vital information to be leaked... Because they have a monetary incentive to do so.... its a free market world we living in. You know? Your personal information may provide a door for others to look into your inner beliefs and then may search for emotionally attached concepts in your brain or in your heart to be used against you. Just like children bully other children in school. And yes there is a lot of cruel children online because there is a lot of irresponsable adults running around. Cant help it. You have to deal with that. Some people may even go after the accounts you use on the net to buy things. Every point of e-commerce activity you ignite and use to buy things is a possible vulnerability. The best way to have some level of control over your finnances online is to always manage a small amount of services. Using one single company to perform electronic transactions is gennerally a good practice. But yes, people online will try to scam you. Just like in life offline. That being said.... You might still want to ask yourself What is so cool about building a website?... Because in a web site, you can customize everything. And some people will already be sold with this. . But let me elaborate just a bit further.. Social media has been perfected into inducing a certain mindset. Designers are paid to create sites that aim to engage you, as a media consumer, not as a person. For monetary profit only. I know.... it sounds just as lame as it actually is. Colors, forms, rythm.. our brains are sensible "machine like" things that react to these things. Exposing yourself to the rythm of social media does things to your brain, and to your mind. What exactly they do? you may ask.. Well.. it may impact negatively in the way you relate to people beyond your screen. It may generate negative feelings towards people you havent met before simply because you are being exposed to their personal achievements all of a sudden. You might read people thoughts comming from very different contexts and judging others with absolute no regards to other people personal life. People behave differently when exposed to a specific design. We adapt to our mediums, and we also imitate others to certain extent because deep down we are intensely wired social creatures. We may find ourselves thinking "That is so unfair, why is she getting so much love from everyone while nobody even cares about what i have to say?" or "This guy thinks he is so smart but he is just a poser" or "What a simp telling her girl in front of everyone he loves her *skull emoji" or "Gosh why she gets to be so perfect and i get to be autistic and small" . And so, we compare ourselves to others over and over and over again, simply because the algorithm keep showing us people that have achieved great things. And since we are naturally engaged in that sort of thing, then the algo-rythm just keep showing us that because now you are interacting with the site. This algo-rythm is not to blame. There is people behind that program the system to do this because they are paid to do so. Its a monetary incentive. Nothing but monetary incentive. So it creates a void inside people that use the system. The social media system. Thats just how it works. But you can experience the online world in a different way. Because after all, the online world is a machine , and we can program a machine to do anything our brains can come up with. And its really fun and empowering. I invite you to consider people behind the screens. And i invite you to take a second before typing out what you want to say. There is whole world of emotions you can help unveil in others just by being a bit more caring with your words. ... stay safe out there.
18-08-2024
I think i get where you comming from old man........ You want people to introduce themselves and put all their fancy titles & good refferences to prevent ad hominem? You just endorse the thing. Doesnt help. Nobody cares. "You are RETARDED" "you are talking nonsense" Ok ok... what if i am..? ..... What difference does it make..? It doesnt change anything doesnt it? You are wasting lines. There are no closed systems. All boxes, barriers, contentions, limits, ranges, in reality, they are just filters. Nothing can stop Everything else from going trough something else. ..look.. everything leaks. Even an air tight seal is just a net, light passes trough the glass of the stringe. Even a black metal box, its full of heat. What, you think heat is not a thing? You think heat is just "motion" ... ok You can call it whatever you want, there is stil something there whatever. You need to take these thoughts in. Or you will miss out. Abstractions cannot precisely model reality, this is why the equations of Heavyside where so negatively disrupting in the academic world even after so many years... Some crucial vectors have been ignored. Some crucial ideas have been neglected. The science is incomplete. The Art is broken. Entropy is just half of a cycle. Maybe the weather channel can ignore a few vectors, they can still predict fairly well enough if its going to rain. Its a useful thing. Its an incredible thing indeed. But......... Sometimes we need to be precise. We cant always ignore what we cant define. We havent stared into the abyss enough to jump into conclusions..
16-08-2024
We can do a lot now. Its been a really good day. .. Just one low note when i noticed my computer slowed down to a crawl for a bit. .. Maybe i got a virus by running my mouth on Discord too much.. .. How sad would be to loose all this work because of some thing like that. Am always backing up everything, but at certain moments it can still be very frustrating when i cant keep up with my own flow of ideas , like when i find myself waiting for my computer to stop doing weird shit. Am not good with cyber security. Am not going to pretend i am. Every day i just hope someone out there can see what i am doing and somehow apreciate it. Maybe i am being naive. I dont care. I dont know how else to aproach that scenary. I know i can loose everything in an instant. I ve been living in the edge for far too long. I can take hunger, fear, misery, depression, stupidity... whatever. But just let me finish my work. I want to share it with future generations. I know its good. I know its something people will be able to appreciate. ... even tho i am working so hard... I still think this belongs to the internet. Before it was even conceived, this idea that drives me forward.. i always knew i was standing in the shoulders of giants. Its a privilege. The time and the tools I ve been blessed with , by a Legion of human ghosts of the past. . the same as i will be someday. Just a ghost from the past. Its the future what moves me. I am doing this because i want to see the future. I will simply become a memory.. a good one. A helpful memory.
14-08-2024
"I will write the instructions, i will execute the commands Until all my words, become the lines your love demands I will carry this memory in my black heart with every step i take , and every beat inside I will never forget this strange feeling I promise to not let it fade, for i will follow its trace The most beautiful feeling i once had.. The silence you so naturally float towards to is my infinity, And i am (bound) in love with everything that exists in your prescence. (And i am in bound with everything that exists in your canvas)"
13-08-2024
hot take "Games are fun. It takes a cultural shift for both developers and players to aknowledge how current game design adictive features is impacting negatively on players collective mental health at planetary scale. Until the game industry really starts focusing on players mental health, we will have games enslaving users into meaningles dopamine retribution. The current state of the Art has been hijacked by marketing shady practices with no other priority than to enforce adiction and consumerism. The game industry has become a weapon of massive mental health disruption by shamelessly fabricating elaborated incentives and promoting a silent spiritual war from players against themselves. Disguised under justified escapism and consumer rights, the inmature minds of players main userbase have rooted their ideas deeply into the belief that the current state of the Art, that is videogames, has and should not have other purpuse than to numb their senses and overstimulate their brains with false achievements and fan service with absolute disregards for their own sanity. Players fail to realize how gaming unhealthy habits undermine their own existance and those of their families and friends as well... "